A Fresh Start

Today is Sunday, August 9th and I'm sitting at home watching the NFL Hall of Fame game. I'm so happy that football season is back. I am still a fan of soccer and baseball (at times) but it's good to watch the pigskin.

So, it's been about a year and a half since I've blogged. Wow...so much has happened. I fell back into the addiction that I tried so hard to avoid (and the reason why this was started in the first place). I guess that times in your life, you have to be able to just survive.

But I don't need to do that anymore. I have never felt better tonight than I do right now. Yes, I still have a bunch of problems but now I feel like I've got a hand on them.

What's changed? Well, God. Jesus. Music. Church. I found a place where I feel like I can be home. Flamingo Road Church (www.flamingoroadchurch.com). I went and listened to the service on Saturday night and everything that the Pastor said spoke to me. Not that he was speaking directly to me but his message was everything I was doing in my life. I had that emptiness and sorrow and just feeling like I was living day by day. At the end of the day, that is what we all do but what about the afterlife? If people would have asked me what it is that I'm afraid of, it's being alone. For the first time in my life, I'm not afraid of being alone or death. I know it's strange but it's a great feeling. I accepted Christ into my life and have seen everything differently today.
There is a lot more to learn and grow from but I feel like this is where I belong. This is where I'm going to thrive and prosper. This is where I should be. I've been pretty much everywhere and done almost everything. at the end of the day where has it got me? a few mintues of fun and enjoyment then depression afterward. So, now the blog will continue and I have to keep this going to keep myself accountable. That is one of the main things I need to do to rid myself of the thoughts and old behavior.

I also changed my profile pic to the Left Behind series. Even before I found the church, I read this series because it is fantastic. the writing is superb and it follows a subject that everyone loves to talk about. The end times.

Well, I'm going to get some sleep.

Until next time.....:-)